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hello. if you've forgotten my name is dottie, who is a student. if you haven't forgotten, then that's a good thing.

my name is dottie and i hate the summer weather because it's just too hot. i don't do much interesting...yet. i have big plans though. i'd like to give back. i'd love to really live without shame and i'd love to live a guilt free life for just a few moments in worship at least. i don't know how that feels and for some reason i don't think i am ever to really feel that. because being sinless can only last for so long.

i want to do something great. i'd love to be on the front lines of some humanitarian effort. especially now. but i want to be the creativity behind apple's next large marketing campaign. so divided and so much talk. either way, i need to leave and be okay with leaving.

i want to go. that's just what i want to do. i want to go and find something big and some thing more than opportunity. it's always what i want. i know. but wanting and being is sometimes all that i can muster out in a blog session.

i would really wish she would go away though. i don't mean her any harm, but i just wish she would leave. but then if the part of me that's afraid and agry at her would leave then i guess that would be okay too. but either way, she represents what i fear the most. because i don't understand her and i don't understand how she can be a daughter, sister, girlfriend, employee. i just don't get her at all. ex girlfriends sometimes never go away and i have to deal with that. but why does he let her happen?

i'm nuts. but if i'm nuts i am at least the honey roasted kind. : p