over it

so i'm over it. the last blog is yesterday's news and now i'm moving on. it doesn't mean that i can't change my mind - rather my feelings change my mind - later because i'm a female and that entitles me to some emotional stupidity....

in other news...

i like my blog when it started. some how it got worse. i'm hoping that no one reads this blog and that it's just out there floating in space. that would be nice. i like to read it now and again - it gives me a good laugh.

i'm ready to graduate and move on. i was done with school when this semester started. i'm slacking in everything i'm doing and it's making me feel like crap. there is so much i'd rather be doing right now... i would really like to have been a graphic design major. it would have been a true test. marketing only pales in comparison. i want to pursue a hobby in art. screen printing seems like it would be a blast. making something with my hands that can be shown seems like a very satisfying thing.

i doubt too much though. so maybe it's good that i gained some confidence in marketing first.

i did a weird thing today, but it was ultimately a good thing. it's probably not something i should do often, but i'm happy i did it. i let go of some bad feelings. i think i'm younger for it. resentment and hate is only for sad and pathetic old people. i told my fiance's ex girl friend that i don't hate her any more. in fact, i told her that she's an okay person and that i was sorry for being hateful. ultimately, i want it to help her. i want it to be an encouraging thing. i read her blog and she inspired me to let stuff go. i like it when stuff like that happens.

i don't like pat roberson on tbn though.

HAH!