in it for the long run

so some people may think a 4 month trip to europe means i'm running away. others may think i am running towards something. i would have to agree more with the people who think i have a goal in mind. i am striving for a little corner of sanity in my head that will tell me everything is okay and that i am just fine. i am not majorly flawed. i am not too fat, ugly, stupid, and i am just fine watching the people go by. i am invested in making myself better so that i am not a waste of air. so i am in things for the long run...

just like doing laundry by hand means your clothing has to soak for 2 hours, life sometimes take much longer than a week to find. so instead of a speedy 30 minute cycle, i have two hours to wait for wet clothes. and instead of a nice week long vacation to europe i have 4 months to wait for a change in my head.