life keeps going no matter where you go
life was pretty uneventful, or rather the lives of the people around me were (including my own) until i decided to live in europe for four months. this is a recap of major, life-altering occasions that happened while i was here. some are pleasant and some are not, but it just goes to show that life happens when you don't want it to and it doesn't when you want it the most.
1. Grandpa dies...sad.
2. Uncle gets married, again
3. Scott the boyfriend gets robbed and will move before i come home
4. Brother Drew finds a girlfriend and gets engaged. Now plans to move to Texas after getting married in May.
5. My best friend finds a boyfriend right before I go.
6. My mother enrolls into school, but this wasn't a surprise because I was warned.
7. My other brother gets a new car.
8. My sister may have her baby before I come home.
9. My friends from college find a cool house to live in over the summer and invite me to live there too.
10. My good friends experience tough relationship problems and are learning how to get through it.
Suddenly the girl (me) who isn't very dramatic acts like the leading star of a soap opera and goes all crazy. It was my brother's wedding announcement that threw me over the edge. I cannot believe it. There is so much to look forward to when I get home because things seem to be changing so quickly. I don't know if I can sleep much tonight because all the changes that are going on around me.
Another big change is the fact that my parents said they will help me out with living expenses like rent and food and stuff even if I live in my own apartment. I know I should be thankful because this means I don't have to work while I'm in school, but part of me wants to work and earn. Why? I know people that have had to work all their lives and would die to have some one else foot the bill for a while. I just want to become a person and take care of myself. I guess I have too much pride. My parents are so generous because they want me to experience college without having work take away from it. Honestly, I sometimes think I'm insane. But I can't help but feel like a moocher.
Am I attaching my worth to my money? I don't think so, cause I'd be worth not much right now.
Am I too prideful to accept the help? Probably.
Am I insulted that my parents have little faith in my abilities to work hard at work and school? Yes. I am.
Am I spoiled? Definately.
How then. How do I cope?
1. Grandpa dies...sad.
2. Uncle gets married, again
3. Scott the boyfriend gets robbed and will move before i come home
4. Brother Drew finds a girlfriend and gets engaged. Now plans to move to Texas after getting married in May.
5. My best friend finds a boyfriend right before I go.
6. My mother enrolls into school, but this wasn't a surprise because I was warned.
7. My other brother gets a new car.
8. My sister may have her baby before I come home.
9. My friends from college find a cool house to live in over the summer and invite me to live there too.
10. My good friends experience tough relationship problems and are learning how to get through it.
Suddenly the girl (me) who isn't very dramatic acts like the leading star of a soap opera and goes all crazy. It was my brother's wedding announcement that threw me over the edge. I cannot believe it. There is so much to look forward to when I get home because things seem to be changing so quickly. I don't know if I can sleep much tonight because all the changes that are going on around me.
Another big change is the fact that my parents said they will help me out with living expenses like rent and food and stuff even if I live in my own apartment. I know I should be thankful because this means I don't have to work while I'm in school, but part of me wants to work and earn. Why? I know people that have had to work all their lives and would die to have some one else foot the bill for a while. I just want to become a person and take care of myself. I guess I have too much pride. My parents are so generous because they want me to experience college without having work take away from it. Honestly, I sometimes think I'm insane. But I can't help but feel like a moocher.
Am I attaching my worth to my money? I don't think so, cause I'd be worth not much right now.
Am I too prideful to accept the help? Probably.
Am I insulted that my parents have little faith in my abilities to work hard at work and school? Yes. I am.
Am I spoiled? Definately.
How then. How do I cope?
posted by Dot Spot at 1:30 PM
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