invading privacy never felt so good
hold the phone.
why is it that emails and letters are easier for me to write. it's as if i want to skirt the awkwardness of saying what i really want to say and it not being received well. again, why do people blog? if you want a journal, write it down. keep word files. i guess there's a deep part in all of us that wants to get close to each other. like deep soul close. and blogs are an easy, annonymous way of achieving that goal. well, sometimes it is annonymous and sometimes it isn't.
i must admit that i read people's blogs. i read my friend's blogs, is that worse? i kind of like the fact that no one reads mine. i feel like i can get away with much more. more candide responses like i have the a great amount of repsect for an acquaintance/friend of mine named nathan. another would be that i really enjoy taking naps and falling asleep with my boyfriend. no one's going to condemn me, cause it's a blog. it's things like these that i probably wouldn't say to just anyone. because of that damn fear of being misunderstood or worse...condemned.
it's a paradox! we want the interaction, but we don't want it. i want to know more about some one, but they don't want to know my immediate response. it's so weird. i love it. i like prying into people's lives and they don't know it. i love telling everyone and no one what i think and feel and what everyone else around me thinks and feels. it's a release of sorts. so it beats the old fashioned way of awkward silences and mixed signals when one wants to really get to know someone.
it's the inner feeling of maybe being heard and understood and it never felt so good.
mmmm....
why is it that emails and letters are easier for me to write. it's as if i want to skirt the awkwardness of saying what i really want to say and it not being received well. again, why do people blog? if you want a journal, write it down. keep word files. i guess there's a deep part in all of us that wants to get close to each other. like deep soul close. and blogs are an easy, annonymous way of achieving that goal. well, sometimes it is annonymous and sometimes it isn't.
i must admit that i read people's blogs. i read my friend's blogs, is that worse? i kind of like the fact that no one reads mine. i feel like i can get away with much more. more candide responses like i have the a great amount of repsect for an acquaintance/friend of mine named nathan. another would be that i really enjoy taking naps and falling asleep with my boyfriend. no one's going to condemn me, cause it's a blog. it's things like these that i probably wouldn't say to just anyone. because of that damn fear of being misunderstood or worse...condemned.
it's a paradox! we want the interaction, but we don't want it. i want to know more about some one, but they don't want to know my immediate response. it's so weird. i love it. i like prying into people's lives and they don't know it. i love telling everyone and no one what i think and feel and what everyone else around me thinks and feels. it's a release of sorts. so it beats the old fashioned way of awkward silences and mixed signals when one wants to really get to know someone.
it's the inner feeling of maybe being heard and understood and it never felt so good.
mmmm....
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