okay. so i found out some really cool stuff about general life recently. here it goes...
1. good writers don't just write about themselves (like i seem to do ad naseum...did i spell that right?) because they write about their culture. they are great observers because some how they can capture their time's and culture's "reality" either real or symbollic.
2. there's no need to be afraid of the ex boyfriend. and he can actually be a friend! whoa! this is a big one. cause i didn't think i could ever be friends with him. but i guess i can! it's like i was being ignorant of ways i could be me. okay, let me clarify. the real dottie likes to be friendly and genuinely help people out. i get a really good feeling from being nice to the people others aren't nice to and i like being one of those really cool, pleasant, and nice people. so i was completely missing this opportunity to be me because of my ignorance to this whole new realm of reality. whoa. that's enough of that.
3. another thing about myself: i realized by a gift of God a weakness and a wrong behavior that i was completely blind to. i realized that i was seriously afraid of looking bad in front of others (not everyone though, just some people) and i would do anything, and i mean anything, to cover up my mistakes. i was a faker. it is more about the principle of it all. i finally realized the heart of the issue and i let it go. and the confidence of who i was all came in and i was able to just be myself to them. it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. well, because we're a continent and a sea a part i was myself to them through email. it sounds simple, but my realization was more like an out of body experience in which i could see myself as another person would. crazy. so it was a very strong revelation rather than just a passing thought. i can only guess that it was a really cool spiritual thing because it was so obvious how i was missing God!
4. this one is important. i need to be more productive. i want to be a leader and i want so many things for my life when it comes to my career. and i'm not talking busy, i'm talking productive. if i honestly applied myself more, it could be so better. i used to be a really motivated and productive person in high school. i was one of those people who did everything and had no clue why. i have definately gotten lazy in college. no more! i really want to do something great in my lifetime and i don't think that's going to be accomplished by being the lazy bum that i am. so i am going to work on that.
5. i'm too controlling and scary when it comes to my boyfriend. scary as in clingy and suspicious. this one is not so much as strong as the previous ones. it's not a revelation like the other ones. this is just an observation that may or may not be true. hahah! so, actually i don't know why it's here. but i'll say it cause it could be true. there we go!
well that should take care of today. i'll post a pic so it's at least some what interesting to the rest of the world and not just me.
1. good writers don't just write about themselves (like i seem to do ad naseum...did i spell that right?) because they write about their culture. they are great observers because some how they can capture their time's and culture's "reality" either real or symbollic.
2. there's no need to be afraid of the ex boyfriend. and he can actually be a friend! whoa! this is a big one. cause i didn't think i could ever be friends with him. but i guess i can! it's like i was being ignorant of ways i could be me. okay, let me clarify. the real dottie likes to be friendly and genuinely help people out. i get a really good feeling from being nice to the people others aren't nice to and i like being one of those really cool, pleasant, and nice people. so i was completely missing this opportunity to be me because of my ignorance to this whole new realm of reality. whoa. that's enough of that.
3. another thing about myself: i realized by a gift of God a weakness and a wrong behavior that i was completely blind to. i realized that i was seriously afraid of looking bad in front of others (not everyone though, just some people) and i would do anything, and i mean anything, to cover up my mistakes. i was a faker. it is more about the principle of it all. i finally realized the heart of the issue and i let it go. and the confidence of who i was all came in and i was able to just be myself to them. it was like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. well, because we're a continent and a sea a part i was myself to them through email. it sounds simple, but my realization was more like an out of body experience in which i could see myself as another person would. crazy. so it was a very strong revelation rather than just a passing thought. i can only guess that it was a really cool spiritual thing because it was so obvious how i was missing God!
4. this one is important. i need to be more productive. i want to be a leader and i want so many things for my life when it comes to my career. and i'm not talking busy, i'm talking productive. if i honestly applied myself more, it could be so better. i used to be a really motivated and productive person in high school. i was one of those people who did everything and had no clue why. i have definately gotten lazy in college. no more! i really want to do something great in my lifetime and i don't think that's going to be accomplished by being the lazy bum that i am. so i am going to work on that.
5. i'm too controlling and scary when it comes to my boyfriend. scary as in clingy and suspicious. this one is not so much as strong as the previous ones. it's not a revelation like the other ones. this is just an observation that may or may not be true. hahah! so, actually i don't know why it's here. but i'll say it cause it could be true. there we go!
well that should take care of today. i'll post a pic so it's at least some what interesting to the rest of the world and not just me.
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